This is an official failure... but I won't delete the blog its still my journey!

Welp as you probably figured this is a complete failure! After Ecoli I just couldn't get back on the bandwagon. I tried MULTIPLE times and would always fall of the bandwagon. September and October were extremely emotional months for me and I gained more weight back and have been emotionally binge eating. Especially during October. Since Ecoli ended I have actually put back on 20 pounds of the 30 pounds I lost from Keto. So after its all said and done I am still 10 pounds down! and 20 lbs down from my all time high! But I am looking bloated and swollen and not feeling my best.

I don't have a plan going forward. I'm just disappointed in myself.

I am also starting infertility treatments again and expect to get pregnant in the next few months. So my goals are now to just maintain my weight and be healthy for Baby. Keto based foods but not worrying about actual ketosis or carb counting.

I'm full on eating processed junk candy and carbs. So I need to kick this habit first and for most.


Hopefully I will have better news next time I check in.....

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