4 pounds away from my pre vacation weight I struggle but I will not give up
So I jumped on that bandwagon and did great. The extra weight fell off! In 1 week I lost 12 pounds. Then bites licks tastes and sips happened.... I've stalled and no longer in ketosis.... damnit..... I'm going to have to do some soul searching as to why I keep self sabotaging. Why does my will power falter? I have a feeling that it has to do with me trying to do this on my own and not relying on God. But I am struggling on how to change that. I definitely keep praying. But I cave to my temptations. And I really don't know why I do that. As soon as I take just sip or a bite I tend to feel guilty and then allow a cheat meal. I still get back on that bandwagon by morning. But by evening I tend to get tired and wear down.
I feel deprived of certain things I crave. Instead of looking at those foods as undesirable they are more desirable than the beautiful things I am eating. I know this mind frame is tricky... and leads to weakness. My foods are more desirable because they give health and wellness and lovely taste.
I also cave to quick and easy. Unfortunately that often means processed. I wish I didn't have to keep certain foods in my house, but at this time I do.
I will find my balance and my way. The struggle back and forth is a good struggle. I am learning. I am learning how to eat and what and what preparations I need to make and seriously analyzing the outcome.
I struggle with the perfection of Keto. Because you are in ketosis or not. I tend to bounce between low carb and keto, and I struggle in my question if this is healthy or not. I also struggle with cheating and cheat meals. I've only had 1 full cheat meal and it made me feel like crap. So I know I don't want to do that again. But in the face of temptation I struggle. Sometimes I think the enemy gets to me through food. Its my addiction and weakness and 1 I fully intend to beat with God leading the way. Leading me in how I can overcome this. It won't be easy, but true growth never really is.
My infertility is my motivator to keep going.
Feeling sexy in front of my husband drives me.
The challenge of repairing my hormones holistically calls me.
The whisper that this path is for a reason in God's purpose keeps me moving. I will not give up.
I feel deprived of certain things I crave. Instead of looking at those foods as undesirable they are more desirable than the beautiful things I am eating. I know this mind frame is tricky... and leads to weakness. My foods are more desirable because they give health and wellness and lovely taste.
I also cave to quick and easy. Unfortunately that often means processed. I wish I didn't have to keep certain foods in my house, but at this time I do.
I will find my balance and my way. The struggle back and forth is a good struggle. I am learning. I am learning how to eat and what and what preparations I need to make and seriously analyzing the outcome.
I struggle with the perfection of Keto. Because you are in ketosis or not. I tend to bounce between low carb and keto, and I struggle in my question if this is healthy or not. I also struggle with cheating and cheat meals. I've only had 1 full cheat meal and it made me feel like crap. So I know I don't want to do that again. But in the face of temptation I struggle. Sometimes I think the enemy gets to me through food. Its my addiction and weakness and 1 I fully intend to beat with God leading the way. Leading me in how I can overcome this. It won't be easy, but true growth never really is.
My infertility is my motivator to keep going.
Feeling sexy in front of my husband drives me.
The challenge of repairing my hormones holistically calls me.
The whisper that this path is for a reason in God's purpose keeps me moving. I will not give up.
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