Randi's Road to Wellness Lead by Faith

I fell off that wagon when I got sick. I have spiraled out of control and all my old food addictions have come back full force. I have gained some weight back as well. I am disgusted with myself and every day I say I will make better choices yet every day I make bad choices and think to myself TOMORROW. I have prayed every night yet I run I run from that small quiet voice by day. I am completely self sabotaging and I don't know why? Is it guilt? I really think it is. It seems my spirit is under fire with temptations lately. And I feel guilt for being so tempted and having "thoughts" maybe I am eating away the guilt of that? Along with clear stress from being out of work and money and marriage ect. I am eating myself numb? What's worse is I feel physically like crap. I am tired and sluggish and full and bloated. Why can't I stop the spiraling of out of control addictions! Processed foods, sugars, carbs, and eating out obsession back in full fledge. I have even go...

In November 2015 I found Melissa Ramos and her Sexy Lady Balls program. I started it. And it has forever altered the way I eat. This was my before picture and my biggest I ever was. I have it with a side by side comparison with July 2017. There is a 40 pound difference here. With Melissa's program I dropped about 15 pounds. I hit a major stall with my food and stress issues In July of 2016. It became clear I had insulin issues and resulted cravings from that. I then became obsessed with trying to track my foods and calorie intake and played around with Macros Until April of 2017. I was up and down another 5 pounds while I tried different things and learned a lot about myself. In April of 2017 I went Keto. I dropped an additional 20 pounds instantly. And here I am in July 2017 on the left. Its so encouraging to see such an incredible difference. I am actually really struggling right now. But I will make another post for that.

Welp....... its been a few weeks, and boy let me tell you!! Life has been crazy and beautiful all at once! I was really slipping week 9. Feeling cravings and weakness and really struggling with dizzy spells especially when I was working out. I ended up getting a DOOZY of a period. Then I got freaking ECOLI infection! I run a child care so it has shut me down for 2.5 weeks so far!! I was incredibly sick. I was so scared for the kids in my care. I got dehydrated and every time I stood up I would get dizzy. It actually got to the point where I blacked out. I had lost an additional 10 pounds! But because of my dehydration and fatigue and sensitive stomach I could not maintain ketosis. I ended up falling off the wagon. And because of the guilt I felt and the insulin spikes I ended up just binging.... I have regained all my weight plus 2 pounds...... So I am back to being 18 pounds down from when I started 12 weeks ago. I don't know where I am going to go from here. I am, for now, ...