Week 12 and I've completely fallen off the wagon and was violently ill week 10
Welp....... its been a few weeks, and boy let me tell you!! Life has been crazy and beautiful all at once!
I was really slipping week 9. Feeling cravings and weakness and really struggling with dizzy spells especially when I was working out.
I ended up getting a DOOZY of a period. Then I got freaking ECOLI infection! I run a child care so it has shut me down for 2.5 weeks so far!! I was incredibly sick. I was so scared for the kids in my care. I got dehydrated and every time I stood up I would get dizzy. It actually got to the point where I blacked out. I had lost an additional 10 pounds! But because of my dehydration and fatigue and sensitive stomach I could not maintain ketosis. I ended up falling off the wagon. And because of the guilt I felt and the insulin spikes I ended up just binging.... I have regained all my weight plus 2 pounds...... So I am back to being 18 pounds down from when I started 12 weeks ago.
I don't know where I am going to go from here. I am, for now, upping my carb intake to 50g total. I am hoping that will put me at under 30g net if I can do it with veggies and getting enough fiber.
I am aiming to drink 1 gallon of water a day.
I am going to be careful to get my electrolytes. I am sea salting and no salting all my food to get in sodium and potassium. I am taking magnesium supplements. I am trying to cut down on coffee. And just say NO to those BLTs (Bites Licks Tastes) I think that is what throws me off all too often and makes cheating just a little too easy. And as soon as I spike my insulin its a down hill spiral. I have really realized that my craving go out of control and my satiety is killed with 1 single insulin spike. I am just sooooo sensitive.
I am really concerned my dizzy spells will return. But I need to try for a solid 2 months with out cheating before I decide I can't do keto. Keto is the only thing that has EVER in my life given me a taste of food freedom. Food freedom is not craving and living to eat and thinking of food and being tempted.
I believe the deceiver has found a bit of leverage with me and food and with God I will overcome.
I have also learned that I need to pray through the day to stay on focus and stay strong. I cannot do this with out God. My will is not enough. I need God's will, and I know he is teaching me through all this!
None of the kids got ecoli. And I have received a 2 week stress break and have been able to catch up on laundry and cleaning. A gift I didn't know I needed. I've learned lessons there too. Where my focus is on life and whats really important. God is always teaching me. And through faith this not so great moment in life has turned out to be a NEEDED blessing! I just hope I can get back to work soon and I can keep focus on whats really important. Not get wrapped up in things. And I really feel God is reminding me my biggest jobs are wife, mother and homemaker. Not daycare provider and health journey. Also that through any and everything God needs to be 1st or I will lose focus. This is hard for me. I am not used to putting God first and going to God first. That is part of the beauty of this blog. It reminds me of his truths and where my focus needs to remain.
His amazing grace! I am so grateful. Even in trial blessings blow me away!
I was really slipping week 9. Feeling cravings and weakness and really struggling with dizzy spells especially when I was working out.
I ended up getting a DOOZY of a period. Then I got freaking ECOLI infection! I run a child care so it has shut me down for 2.5 weeks so far!! I was incredibly sick. I was so scared for the kids in my care. I got dehydrated and every time I stood up I would get dizzy. It actually got to the point where I blacked out. I had lost an additional 10 pounds! But because of my dehydration and fatigue and sensitive stomach I could not maintain ketosis. I ended up falling off the wagon. And because of the guilt I felt and the insulin spikes I ended up just binging.... I have regained all my weight plus 2 pounds...... So I am back to being 18 pounds down from when I started 12 weeks ago.
I don't know where I am going to go from here. I am, for now, upping my carb intake to 50g total. I am hoping that will put me at under 30g net if I can do it with veggies and getting enough fiber.
I am aiming to drink 1 gallon of water a day.
I am going to be careful to get my electrolytes. I am sea salting and no salting all my food to get in sodium and potassium. I am taking magnesium supplements. I am trying to cut down on coffee. And just say NO to those BLTs (Bites Licks Tastes) I think that is what throws me off all too often and makes cheating just a little too easy. And as soon as I spike my insulin its a down hill spiral. I have really realized that my craving go out of control and my satiety is killed with 1 single insulin spike. I am just sooooo sensitive.
I am really concerned my dizzy spells will return. But I need to try for a solid 2 months with out cheating before I decide I can't do keto. Keto is the only thing that has EVER in my life given me a taste of food freedom. Food freedom is not craving and living to eat and thinking of food and being tempted.
I believe the deceiver has found a bit of leverage with me and food and with God I will overcome.
I have also learned that I need to pray through the day to stay on focus and stay strong. I cannot do this with out God. My will is not enough. I need God's will, and I know he is teaching me through all this!
None of the kids got ecoli. And I have received a 2 week stress break and have been able to catch up on laundry and cleaning. A gift I didn't know I needed. I've learned lessons there too. Where my focus is on life and whats really important. God is always teaching me. And through faith this not so great moment in life has turned out to be a NEEDED blessing! I just hope I can get back to work soon and I can keep focus on whats really important. Not get wrapped up in things. And I really feel God is reminding me my biggest jobs are wife, mother and homemaker. Not daycare provider and health journey. Also that through any and everything God needs to be 1st or I will lose focus. This is hard for me. I am not used to putting God first and going to God first. That is part of the beauty of this blog. It reminds me of his truths and where my focus needs to remain.
His amazing grace! I am so grateful. Even in trial blessings blow me away!
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