Week 9 and I had a bad weekend

So it all started on a Thursday night. My mom took my daughter over night and I took myself out to eat for a delicious salad before I ran some errands. I accidently ordered the wrong salad. It came with breadstick croutons and pasta in the salad. It looked so good I convinced myself I'd be fine with 1 cheat meal..... My insulin spiked...... I felt hungry and was craving foods..... I bought candy for the daycare kid's dads. I ate 7 pieces of candy..... Friday I had a bit more candy. I felt out of control. Saturday I had a few bites of pasta and chips. Sunday....... I ate cheesecake, candy, and icecream. Monday I woke bloated 8 pounds up and had diarrhea. I felt full of shame. I'm back on the bandwagon and 4 of those pounds are already gone (it's Tuesday)

But I realized 1 thing. I was on autopilot feeling confident and not putting God first. I was just back to my old self. A bit too comfortable. Now I'm glad for the slip up. It brings me back here to this blog and my gentle nudging to do this with God. It's about over all road to wellness and breaking free from my addictions and that path God will bring me to. I just need to stay faithful and keep God first.

If you screw up just talk to God. Forgive yourself and move on. Get curious to why. Learn from it. Get back to God. Get back to your journey. It's really ok. And God will transfigure it to good as he does all things. Stay faithful.

In the future I'd really like to be more prepared for bbqs and get togethers. Bring foods I can have! Bring my own dessert if that's part of the tradition. Sort like I do with my food allergy daughter. I'm prepared!

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